Bhante Pesala shows up in my head when words matter too much and also not at all, when I’m tired of sloppy thinking but scared of becoming rigid. I’m thinking about Bhante Pesala tonight because I caught myself being vague. Again. I was caught saying things like "I basically understand," or "it’s something like that," without ever verifying m… Read More

Beelin Sayadaw enters my thoughts during those late hours when discipline feels isolated, plain, and far less "sacred" than the internet portrays it. I don’t know why Beelin Sayadaw comes to mind tonight. Maybe because everything feels stripped down. There is no creative spark or spiritual joy—only a blunt, persistent awareness that I must cont… Read More